There are way to many! I look this way there is food I look that way there is food its all around me! But the choice is mine, to eat or not to eat this is the question. Its been hard the past year. Watching the changes in everyone including myself. I feel like everytime I make a few steps forwards something happens and I step five back. Im so so sick of it. I have the knowledge and the ability to do this and I chose to stall. Now I got to figure out why I keep stalling. Am I trying to keep this wall of fat up around me for the pupose of keeping people away or what? Im not sure but something is going on in this big head of mine. I want so bad to get rid of it but then I turn around and shove a cookie in my mouth. Then I have the added stress to living up to others ideal of pretty, man its getting old. I need to do this for me I know that much but doing and saying are two different things. So I guess thats why I try to hang onto this page to keep me accountable and on track, I have lossed a good amount of weight this past year and I dont want to put that back on. I wish I seen more action here though, where is all the people gone? My sister is always busy cant tell you when was the last time Ive seen her. So there is not much support there, I have no time for the gym Im always at school or work or watching kids. No one here has been on encouringing here in a long while. So Ill give it a few weeks and I hope things will turn around or else Ill just pull the page. Well till later I think, ~SHAWN~

Ok been slacking and the day is here! Today is the first day of our event. I hope this will encourage me and others to stay on track this Holidays coming up. As all of us know we gain weight this time of year. I dont want to do that. I hope all of you visit our page as well as our Event page.

So on to a new me......~SHAWN~

My Declaration of Self-Esteem - "I Am Me"
Virginia Satir

 

In all the world there is no-one else exactly like me.

Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone chose it.

I own everything about me; my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or to myself - I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes, because I own all of me.

I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and other aspects that I do not know, but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do - I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.

I own me, and therefore I can engineer me - I am me and I am okay

Hey everyone its Donielle here. I know that I havent been on here in a very long time. Everyday things gets me going and I lose focus of these things. Well I went into WW today and I knew that I was going to have a gain because I ate everything that didnt eat me first. A lot of JUNK!!!! Before I stepped on I told Nancy that I was going to have a gain and I got on and sure enough there it was. I didnt think that is was going to be that big of one but it was. 4.4lbs up this week. That really sucks but I have to work at getting it off and moving forward from here. Well to do that I decided to do core this week. For those of you who are familuar with WW you know what that is and for those of you that arnt, well its where I get to eat certain foods and the foods that I am not supose to have ,I have to use my points for them. I tried core before and I hated it! I ended up finishing the rest of the week with flex. I am praying that I can make it through the whole week and also to have a BIG loss. I will keep you all posted, thanks again for everything! Donielle

Starting a new chapter can be exciting but scary. Ive always wantd to go back to school but always found  excusses. Now I just have to bite the bullet and just do it. I came to realize that I cant do this alone with the education I have. I just cant make ends meet that way. So off to school I go. Yesterday was first day of orientation. It went good. Im so excited to go back. It was fun meeting all my new classmates. Tonight is my first day of class and Im nervous but looking forwards to it. The food thing though is making me nervous. Ive been real bad this past few weeks I havent gained but I havent lossed. Im pretty sure I do this to myself. I know what it takes to accomplish what I want but doing it is another story. I just wish I could get a handle on things. My sister just flew by me in lbs and is still going strong. I wish I could do that. Im trying to make the time for  myself but with work watching grandbabies and school I feel like Im lossed. I need to put in a block of time just for me but its hard when you dont have much of it. So Im going to try and write all my stuff down in a planner and schedule myself in. I need to do this! Also Im single now and need to look my best LOL! So funny, I wouldnt even think of trying to get with another man at this time in my life its just way to much. So I hope this new event (NEW YEAR 2009)coming up and the hope of getting to my goal will help me get motivated and stay on track this Holiday season. So I hope you all will join and keep my on track and I will do the same for you....~SHAWN~

The Power Of One

 

          One song can spark a moment,
         One flower can wake the dream.
        One tree can start a forest,
       One bird can herald spring.

     One smile begins a friendship,
    One handclasp lifts a soul.
    One star can guide a ship at sea,
    One word can frame the goal.

Take full responsibility for your life.
Stop blaming others.
See yourself as the cause of what happens to you.

Do things you like to do.
Don't stay in a job you don't like.
Participate in life at the highest level you can.

Stop terrorising yourself with your thoughts.
Be gentle and kind and patient with yourself.

Give yourself the simple pleasures of life abundantly.
Wear clothes you feel good in, get a massage etc.

Watch what you say. Avoid self put-downs.
Stop being critical of yourself and others.

Take care of your body.
Give it exercise and good food.

Be willing to create a life-style that generates and nourishes self-esteem.
Associate with others with high esteem.

Acknowledge yourself frequently.
Keep a diary of your successes and accomplishments.

Avoid comparing yourself with others.
Remember that it's who we are, not what we do, that's important

Give yourself permission to do nothing periodically.
Schedule time by yourself.

Frequently take deep breaths.
Discover the benefit and pleasure of breathing fully.

Eat first class frequently.
Don't look at the right side of the menu.

Stop trying to change others.
Focus your attention on being the way you want others to be.

Look into a mirror regularly
and say "I love you, I really love you".

Stop feeling guilty and saying "I'm sorry".
See mistakes as valuable lessons and avoid judging yourself.

Consciously generate positive thoughts and feelings of self-love
in place of old thoughts of inadequacy.

Be willing to laugh at yourself and at life.
Stop taking yourself so seriously.

Accept compliments from others without embarrassment.
Don't invalidate their positive thoughts and feelings about you.

Be kind to your mind.
Don't hate yourself for having negative thoughts.
Gently change your thoughts.

Keep your awareness and your thoughts focussed in present time
instead of living in the past or future.

Acknowledge others frequently.
Tell them what you like and appreciate in them.

Invest money in yourself.
Go to seminars, workshops and courses that develop your talents.

Make a list of 10 things
you love doing and do them frequently.

Treat yourself as you would treat someone you really loved.
Praise yourself.

 

 

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trying to update this site. Hope this will also help me keep on track. Im nervous about the picks I havent been to good latley and havent lossed anything in a month Ugg! Well onto new days right! So I hope you enjoy the new additions and keep posted more to come! ~SHAWN~

Im so happy that I finally got back my own computer now I can update our photos. Im hoping to get with Donielle soon to do hers Im excited for everyone to see her tranformation! I myself havent seen her in weeks so really looking forwards to it myself. In the next few weeks Im finally able to get back into the gym. Im also starting back at school to futher my education in the medical field. Im so excited about that my first day will be the 20th. I feel so happy right now and im able to really enjoy life without those lbs weighing me down. I cant amagine what it will be like when Im at my goal. You know what is really weird is that for so long I was trying to live up to others standards and the moment I said forget that is the moment the weight started coming off, mind control!  Ill never let that happen again like we have said plenty of times before you are the only one that can make you what you want to be. So remember that when someone offers you a peice of pie! Till later have a great day ~SHAWN~

I am getting ready to leave and teach my first ever Sunday class. Not knowing what or who to expect. I know that I will enjoy myself though, I LOVE TEACHING!!! Praying for a big class:) I will keep in touch, Donielle

just wanted you to all know that soon Ill be getting a new computer then I can update photos! Im really looking forwards to it actually and I cant wait to post them! Everyday I see changes and Im sure my sis does also so keep tuned!!

I know that I haven't been on here in a while. I am sorry for that, I have been super busy. I have 4 jobs and along with working out I am on the go often. Not alot of time to hop on here and blog. I really hope that everyone is doing GREAT! About my sisters blog....I am rooting for the yellow team!!! You know that the parents spend and sacrafice for there kids and for the girl to do that challenge for her and her dad, that spoke volumnes to my heart! The yellow team has HEART and that is what it is going to take. This week I gained .8lbs. Not good but I will move forward and not dwell on a little gain like that.

 

Everyone hang in there and I will do the same. Till later, Donielle

I had another loss!! 2lbs!! yeah for me Im so happy Ive been doing really good on food intake and it is really starting to pay off.  It was so fun to rubb it in my daughters face, not that im mean like that, but she always thinks she can whip her old mom!  So how did you like the new B.L.? i enjoyed it I wasnt shocked that the green team left they shouldnt have been so cocky to everyone. Sugar gets you farther I always say! Havent they watch the t.v. show before?? You have to play to win! Who are you pulling for any favorites? Mine is the father daughter duo I like them she loves her daddy so and that melted my heart! Hope all goes good this week and keep your head up and your heart open! ~SHAWN~

I was talking to a person I work with and I got so moved. I dont really do shifts with this person and havent worked with her for a while and she said to me something that moved me to tears. She has been struggling with her weight for a long while, after her mom,grandma,cat and boyfriend died all around the same time she was at her end. She works late nights and just started to go into the funk of depression and eating out of pain. Well as all of you know my sister has done so great and I always tell everyone about our successes and our hard times with this journey to weightloss. I always try and help people with this if they ask, but I never mentioned to her about her weight because I just thought it would be rude and I know it is up to a person to change, I can only encourage them if they ask. So anyway I had a long conversation with her about the struggles Im having and she says Shawn you and your sister has really made me think about myself again, you dont know this but from afar you and your sister are my inspiration to get my health back and my life. She said to me, was thinking of all the times you was out of work and bed ridden and you would fight with  all you got to get back on track and go to the gym. So if your sister can become an fitness instructor and you can over come your pain to be healthy, then I can get off my sad behind and get my life back. I was so moved, all this time Ive thought that I was helping myself and all along God has used us to be there so save others What a bleesing to be a blessing in another persons life. I will never forget this feeling! ~SHAWN~

Starting this week I will be teaching my own BODYPUMP classes at the gym. My time slots are Monday at 9am, Wednesday 9am and Noon. It took someone losing there job but there loss and my gain. I am SO greatful for that, I have worked so hard to get where I am now. I plan on being the best that I can be. My goal is to be able to build the classes up and make them my own. The people that came are used to Maria and now I need to make it my class. Kortney did send my an email that a lady from the gym send her. It was about me, she took my class on Tuesday at noon and she said that I am not as experienced as Kortney but I gave them a good workout. Well that's all I can do. I have a lot to learn still and that will come with growth. It has taken alot to get where I am and I plan on moving forward.

 

As far as the eating, I am doing okay.  I am still having a hard time with it. One day at a time, that's all I can do:) Donielle