Shawn and Donielle's Weightloss Journey!

There are way to many! I look this way there is food I look that way there is food its all around me! But the choice is mine, to eat or not to eat this is the question. Its been hard the past year. Watching the changes in everyone including myself. I feel like everytime I make a few steps forwards something happens and I step five back. Im so so sick of it. I have the knowledge and the ability to do this and I chose to stall. Now I got to figure out why I keep stalling. Am I trying to keep this wall of fat up around me for the pupose of keeping people away or what? Im not sure but something is going on in this big head of mine. I want so bad to get rid of it but then I turn around and shove a cookie in my mouth. Then I have the added stress to living up to others ideal of pretty, man its getting old. I need to do this for me I know that much but doing and saying are two different things. So I guess thats why I try to hang onto this page to keep me accountable and on track, I have lossed a good amount of weight this past year and I dont want to put that back on. I wish I seen more action here though, where is all the people gone? My sister is always busy cant tell you when was the last time Ive seen her. So there is not much support there, I have no time for the gym Im always at school or work or watching kids. No one here has been on encouringing here in a long while. So Ill give it a few weeks and I hope things will turn around or else Ill just pull the page. Well till later I think, ~SHAWN~

Ok been slacking and the day is here! Today is the first day of our event. I hope this will encourage me and others to stay on track this Holidays coming up. As all of us know we gain weight this time of year. I dont want to do that. I hope all of you visit our page as well as our Event page.

So on to a new me......~SHAWN~

My Declaration of Self-Esteem - "I Am Me"
Virginia Satir

 

In all the world there is no-one else exactly like me.

Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine because I alone chose it.

I own everything about me; my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or to myself - I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes, because I own all of me.

I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me and other aspects that I do not know, but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do - I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.

I own me, and therefore I can engineer me - I am me and I am okay

Hey everyone its Donielle here. I know that I havent been on here in a very long time. Everyday things gets me going and I lose focus of these things. Well I went into WW today and I knew that I was going to have a gain because I ate everything that didnt eat me first. A lot of JUNK!!!! Before I stepped on I told Nancy that I was going to have a gain and I got on and sure enough there it was. I didnt think that is was going to be that big of one but it was. 4.4lbs up this week. That really sucks but I have to work at getting it off and moving forward from here. Well to do that I decided to do core this week. For those of you who are familuar with WW you know what that is and for those of you that arnt, well its where I get to eat certain foods and the foods that I am not supose to have ,I have to use my points for them. I tried core before and I hated it! I ended up finishing the rest of the week with flex. I am praying that I can make it through the whole week and also to have a BIG loss. I will keep you all posted, thanks again for everything! Donielle

Starting a new chapter can be exciting but scary. Ive always wantd to go back to school but always found  excusses. Now I just have to bite the bullet and just do it. I came to realize that I cant do this alone with the education I have. I just cant make ends meet that way. So off to school I go. Yesterday was first day of orientation. It went good. Im so excited to go back. It was fun meeting all my new classmates. Tonight is my first day of class and Im nervous but looking forwards to it. The food thing though is making me nervous. Ive been real bad this past few weeks I havent gained but I havent lossed. Im pretty sure I do this to myself. I know what it takes to accomplish what I want but doing it is another story. I just wish I could get a handle on things. My sister just flew by me in lbs and is still going strong. I wish I could do that. Im trying to make the time for  myself but with work watching grandbabies and school I feel like Im lossed. I need to put in a block of time just for me but its hard when you dont have much of it. So Im going to try and write all my stuff down in a planner and schedule myself in. I need to do this! Also Im single now and need to look my best LOL! So funny, I wouldnt even think of trying to get with another man at this time in my life its just way to much. So I hope this new event (NEW YEAR 2009)coming up and the hope of getting to my goal will help me get motivated and stay on track this Holiday season. So I hope you all will join and keep my on track and I will do the same for you....~SHAWN~